I wish I could change my chain, but I can’t.
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
So I just got done
with my EuroTrash for the day. That was pretty much the most depressing thing
I’ve ever had to write about. I had obviously heard about the arrests earlier
in the week as well as some of the other details, but I’ve really only been
seeing, thinking, and working on one thing: the Giro. Then, when I had to go
and do a little research for ET…the magnitude of the whole thing became painfully
clear.
It’s funny how
most bike racers comment all the time that they figure pretty much everyone
in the big-time Euro peloton is on drugs. I’ve always wondered and usually ask
people what they think, but I sure as hell don’t know. I mean, I hope not, but
if I ever found out that everyone was on it, it probably wouldn’t surprise me
too much, at least that’s what I thought.
To get this whiff
of what the whole truth might be is unsettling. I know it doesn’t matter what
I think, not in the least, but it’s depressing. I know I’m trying to be a pro
bike racer, and I know I’m a long, long way from being good, so I guess I’m
first and foremost a fan of riding my bike as well as a fan of cycling in general.
I love watching, reading, working on pro bike racing stuff. I’m a dorky fan.
I know names, numbers, stupid facts, about just about every rider. Ivan Basso
is probably my favorite rider, I think Chris Horner is a huge bad ass. I thought
Lance Armstrong was unbelievable. I don’t really play favorites, I think they’re
all unbelievable, because I have a pretty decent idea just how far away from
that level that I am – a long, long, long way.
To find out though
that Ivan Basso and Jan Ullrich are already being linked in the investigation
is depressing. There are rumoured to be 200 riders/athletes’ names that go with
the blood samples the investigators found. TWO HUNDRED! If those were all bike
racers, that would probably take out at least half of the ProTour riders.
I don’t know, again,
it doesn’t really affect me in any way directly. Then again, I guess it does,
because I just had to write an article about something horribly negative, something
that will make people not want to read about or have anything to do with bike
racing – I posted it at the top of PEZCyclingNews.com – right in the middle
of all of the Giro fun and happiness – there’s a black spot and I wrote it.
I didn’t especially
want to, nor did I really think it was my job to come to any conclusions, so
I quoted from just about every newssource I could find. At one point I had decided
that I didn’t want to write about the whole topic, but then I realized how dumb
that would be when what could be the biggest doping scandal in the history of
sport is unveiled and I was too timid to write about it because it was ‘depressing.’
Yeah.
Their world doesn’t
change my world, that’s for sure. I still want to be a pro bike racer. I could
climb up on my soapbox at this point and say, well I’m not doping and bla bla
bla bla, but whatever. I like bike racing because it’s hard. I like bike racing
because I love seeing the slow, steady improvement that I’m getting day by day,
week by week, year by year. I love, for once in my 23 years, knowing that I’m
working hard for a goal, and I’m going to get to that goal at some point in
the next decade.
I guess that’s
all I have to say about that.
This was a pretty
dumb post I guess, because once again, my voice doesn’t matter in all of this.
It’s some big deal over in Europe and it has nothing to do with me. Right? That’s
the attitude to take.


